Sometimes things don’t always end up the way you thought they would. People don’t always react the way you think they will. Plans don’t always go the way you want them to....

'People change' that’s what I've heard time and time again. And we all fear whether this change is for the better or for worse. But none have questioned those two words itself. “People Change” what does this really mean? Do people really change or is it just our mind telling us that they have changed, more importantly have they really changed or is it our mind telling us that they have simply because they suddenly act differently from the way we expect them to. Often the truth lies simply in the fact that what we initially saw, was never really there. We convinced ourselves that the unreal is real—what one could term as the ‘bed of roses’ period in a relationship.

The classic example is that of two lovers in a relationship—the typical love story that gets too awry to imagine. They meet someplace— where, when, or why is not necessary. But they connect, and as time moves on the relationship grows deeper. But roses do wilt eventually, just like the blissful period of blind love that they are initially struck with. Slowly what seems to brighten ones day turns into an early morning dose of screams and shouts. Injurious words spat out in anger from both involved. Mornings that began with smiles and an early breakfast turn into arguments that are carried forward from a previous day’s conversation. Trips to work via the same route turn into both storming out the door and leaving in separate vehicles. Yet the inevitable conversation of the final collapse still lay untouched. Each afraid of surviving without the other and yet each barely surviving with the other. Afraid of the pain that accompanies the departure but yet silently surviving each day filled with the pain that disceptation brings.

Some actually take that the final step—‘Goodbye’ (nothing but a mere word which holds sorrow that is always unheard). While others still tarry on, still afraid to let go. And finally in the latter’s case, one caves in and silently dissolves into submission. While the other moves along with life content that things appear to flow smoothly.

‘Emotions’ can either break you or build you. It is the level of power that we give them that result in the final outcome.

Change is always inevitable. Nothing ever grows without evolving. This evolution is change itself. But the important thing is to realise where the change really is. Is it in the people who you face everyday or the person you’re facing when you look in the mirror?

Where Are We Going?

In today’s world one discusses— the imminent conflict in a country, terrorism horrors that wreck nations, the latest merger or acquisition, the recent budget to set yet another course of worried faces, etc. There exists a Brobdingnagian list of subjects that draw a large horde of schmoozers as well as overeager listeners. However, speech having been there through centuries can either serve a cause or lead to a spate of ceaseless dissensions.

The current throng of media has constantly covered every update of the events that have been mounting to an arrest of a known name in the political scenario. An imminent arrest which has been pending for the past few days has taken its toll on not only the law makers but the general public as well. While some wait silently, ready to strike the minute any physical arrest is made. Others sit silently praying that the arrest doesn't lead to mass destruction in the city. The former having already given a prelude to the destruction that can be expected, have successfully postponed the law making body to follow through with the task assigned to them. While the latter, some who were innocent victims in the initial destruction, have been taciturnly waiting for the next wave of events that are expected post the apprehension that is to take place. This being said, it gives one to wonder are countries today ruled by a governing body or by singular people. There is always someone at the helm that leads the pack. But the members do have a say in the matter, if that was not the case then we simply have been promoting a Communist government disguised in a democratic cloak. When did countries take a path that let one person’s indictment cause havoc to multitude? This is not the first instance, however, this scenario has been seen world over in many countries through the years.

One person gains the self-assigned right to rule over people based on judgment he/she deems fit irrespective of the consequences it may have on the lives of people who are victims of the judgment. Take, for instance, another country where the citizens would soon lose their given right to privacy due to lack of adequate representation that would be allotted to the governing body assigned to protect these rights. Due to growing terrorism concerns, a government institution is setting out to pass a bill that would largely lead to an invasion of privacy for the citizens. At the moment, chaos lies within the government with some pleading with those at the helm to carefully think through this motion. The emergence of this bill has the hand of one singular person. Yet again, we are thrown into the harsh realities of the world as it stands today, where one person can lead to, so great a conflict in a nation. Are governments today really built on democracies for the people, by the people and of the people, or are they built for those that through skillful tact can turn an entire nation’s path to pander to their own ideologies and schemes.

Memoirs Of The Condemned

She-Devil steps in, I am on chat with some friend, and she, of course, is not aware whom. I am completely unaware as it was in the real sense her sneaking up on me. Well it takes Dim-Wit (me) a few minutes to register that the chat box was still showing, while I proceeded to have a conversation with the She-Devil. She lists the meetings scheduled with the respective departments, for today, and then proceeds to say that she would like to have a separate meeting with the desk - 'sole purpose how come we have access to chat and we are currently using it'. This, of course, is done with the fiery stare directed at me. The other darling (the she devil's right hand - her protégée) did however notice the mother figure sneak up, so of course chat box rapidly disappeared. Moral of the story, the rest of the population at The Company are all chatting simultaneously but alas just 1 soul will now fall into the blistering pit, as the She-Devil would rather have us not use the internet for purposes other than those she deems worthy.

Second moral of the story: WHY ME?

The condemnation (meeting) is yet to take place. Hell House Magazine shall keep its readers posted on what the verdict is after the hearing takes place.

Have you ever felt like everything seems pointless? You don't know where you're going, you don't know what to do next. You wonder if all you've done till now has been fruitful in some way or whether you will ever be able to do something that will make a difference.

Thinking back on times gone by, memories that still hold a place in my minds eye and wonder about those that I can no longer recall. Wonder if what I perceive as right is really right or whether I simply follow a mass that has been trained to follow the social norms that have been ingrained in us. Could those beliefs be mechanisms that have somehow brainwashed a logical thought process of the real truth? Working within a box that has been custom made for each of us. Each one appearing different but on close observation they may all actually be the same. The rules, the boundaries, the beliefs by which we are brought up, we are taught about and by which we are expected to be unconditionally faithful to.

Is it a wonder that most of us end up at a point where we wonder if the place we arrive at is really a beginning or an end. More importantly if it is a place we ourselves choose to be in. The unanswerable questions forever lurk in the dusty corners of our mind. We dare not dwell too closely on it. For fear of reaching a reality that would lead us to a state of confusion far worse than we exist in at present. Those that traveled to that length never return, forever seeking to go beyond the boundaries looking for that, which lurks on the other side. But none return to tell the story. For this journey never ends, an ongoing travel to last one a lifetime and more.

And yet the questions we push to the corner of our minds, still live there. They remained unanswered. We live on like programmed machines with instructions fed into our system and never going beyond the frame built for us. This tradition passed down the ages from father to son, from mother to daughter, from the old to the young. Each generation has their set of variations but yet they all still follow the same basic model that was initially built.

Never changing is the sermon we live up to in our heads. But has it really been preached for the better. And if it has, then who really gains?

For if there is logical reason then why are there yet so many questions left unanswered?